As I was driving home from work I passed by the Lazy Boy store. On the outside are signs for Temperpedic beds. Six years ago we went to South Padre Island and as soon as we walked into the hotel, Zane lifted up the sheet to the mattress and said “ahhhh it’s a Temperpedic!!”. Such a funny memory of my baby boy especially since he was only 10 years old. I love how things can trigger my memory. I write tonight’s blog sitting next to his dog Mia, whom misses him so incredibly much. They were such a great fit for each other. Both with anxiety, both with a love of being alone. Every time I give her a hug, I feel like I’m giving my son a hug in some sort of way. Zane loved Mia so much.
In the middle of the night I woke up, sat at the edge of the bed and I swear I heard Zane say “Mom”. I don’t know if I was awake or dreaming. But it was in his classic voice. Holy cow I miss that voice. I miss everything about him. Everything. But if a dream is what I get, I will take it. Sweet baby boy, keep coming to me….