Infinity

Who will you love “to infinity and beyond?” I know.

I read a sweet post on one of my FB pages. A fellow mom went to a wedding where the bride and groom wrote their own vows. Instead of saying “till death do us part” they said “to infinity and beyond”. Why?? Because I promise you will love someone past the point of their deaths. I will love my baby boy from infinity and beyond and back around.

It’s not always easy loving someone. It’s even more difficult loving someone forever. Maybe they’ve stopped loving you but you still love them. That’s hard. Being a child and seeing your parent or parents pass, did you stop loving them? Nope, that’s forever love. And that’s hard. This is why 15 1/2 months later my forever love still hurts like the moment I heard around 5:25pm he was gone. Infinity. A mother and father’s love are forever.

Let It Be by The Beatles

When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted, there is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the night is cloudy there is still a light that shines on me
Shine until tomorrow, let it be
I wake up to the sound of music, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, yeah, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, yeah, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

This is all I can tell myself at times, let it be. John Lennon co-wrote this song with Paul. John might have predicted something. Who knows.

Last blog I mentioned how our family had been slammed against a wall. Again. Last week Joe was diagnosed with colon cancer. To clarify and give details, he was having issues, had a colonoscopy, Dr found a polyp, it was cancerous all the way in the root which means its in the colon. He will have surgery November 26th to have at least 10 inches removed, stay in the hospital 2-3 days, and hopefully no chemo or radiation when the report comes back. We decided to wait until after the holiday so we can take our trip to Dallas for Thanksgiving.

This morning I broke down in the shower. Joe was still asleep so he couldn’t hear me. I feel so guilty being emotional. I’m not the one sick. I’m not the one who has cancer. I’m not the one who has to have part of my insides removed. I’m not the one who has to worry about it coming back. Ugh.

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Zane loved to infinity. Learn from my baby boy.

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