Right Place

Last Thursday we left for a family vacation. Obviously it was difficult without our blue eyed, bright, whitty, sarcastic child. But we owed a great one to Kai’Dyn and Riot since they’ve never been to a real water park. Schlitterbahn had NO idea what was headed towards them with 8 of us this time. We had not been since Zane was about 12 and Daniel was 15. It was Adrianna’s first time there as well and we drug their friend Stephen along too (his first time).

Ok, so we are 6 hours from home, in a HUGE water park, from a little bitty town, and guess what happens? Yep we run into Levelland people while in the kiddie area. At first we didn’t recognize them since we were our of our element but the young man flags me down and says “Hey y’all are from Levelland! You are Zane’s parents”. OMG…it was a Zane thing. He would have graduated with Zane. He was there with his family for their vacation just like ours. We met his family and talked for hours. His older siblings and niece and nephew have been hanging out in the kiddie area all day with us but we hadn’t realized it. Right time right place, meant to be.

The last time we went to the Natural Bridge Caverns, Zane was way younger, probably 8 or 9. It was after church camp when we picked up him, Daniel, Cyrene and Becca. At the time the Zoo wasn’t there so we were able to enjoy it this this year. Oh the kids had a wonderful time, especially Zeagan.

Floating the Comal River was a first for all of us. I made sure to soak in all of the hints from everyone that told me what to do. We honestly had no idea what we were doing 🤣 but in the end it turned out great. We will know exactly what to do next time. FYI there are SO many rules. But definitely can’t wait to go back and float longer.

Our last night there apparently I had quite the dream. Monday morning around 4 Joe woke me up asking me what was wrong. I was crying in my sleep. Uncontrollably. My dream was terrible. I was at a funeral. HIS funeral. Not the place I wanted to be. I continued to cry for a bit longer until I could contain myself then I tried to go back to sleep. I hoped to not dream any more. I hate dreaming. I’m terrified of dreams like that. The only dreams I want are of him visiting me.

Those are all I need.

‘Will the Sun Ever Rise’ by 5FDP

I take one step forward, and two steps back
It’s always been like that
It shouldn’t be like that
I’m trying to overcome myself
Trying to work around this hell

Two steps forward, and three steps back
Why is life like that?
Why am I like that?
I’m trying to understand myself
Trying to fight through this hell
Why can’t I see this clearly
Why can’t I
Hey hey you, are you living the dream
Seen what I’ve seen, nothing is clean
Hey hey you, while I’m rolling the dice
I’m paying the price, I’ve been walking on ice
Hey hey you, just get outta my way
At the end of the day, you’ve got nothing to say
Hey hey you, see the look in my eyes
Will the sun ever rise, will the sun ever rise?
All the days gone by and I can’t get em back
What was my name now, what is my name now?
Tryin’ to rise above myself
Tryin’ to look beyond this hell
Seems like I got way off track
No one ever found me, no one unbound me
I wonder why I hate myself
Surrounded by a living hell
Why can’t I see this clearly
Why can’t I
Hey hey you, are you living the dream
Seen what I’ve seen, nothing is clean
Hey hey you, while I’m rolling the dice
I’m paying the price, I’ve been walking on ice
Hey hey you, just get outta my way
At the end of the day, you’ve got nothing to say
Hey hey you, see the look in my eyes
Will the sun ever rise, will the sun ever rise?…….”

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