He Knows How to Get to Me

HOLY CRAP THIS KID!!! How does he do it??? How? How does he know how to introduce a song to me that SPEAKS directly to ME? And every time I hear it I flipping break down?

Oh Zane. I will never stop missing you my sweet boy. Let me tell you about this song. Piece by piece.

Lany ‘if this is the last time’

“Hey mom, I know we’re gettin’ old
And the lines on our hands have changed
But you still look at me the same
Hey mom, guess what? You’re really tough
And I know you did all you could
Just to make sure my life was good”

Ugh. I swear Zane is talking to me through whoever wrote this song! I’m dreaming I know. And yes this song can fit so many other moms. I DID do all I could to make sure his life was good…

“Sorry for the fights and the tone of my voice
Sorry for the nights when I made the wrong choice
Life is flyin’ by and it’s hittin’ me now
I hope it’s not, but…”

We never had fights. Seriously tho. He did make a few wrong choices but didn’t we all?

“If this is the last time, please come close
I love you with all my heart, you know
I don’t wanna cry, I’m bad at goodbye
If this is the last time
Then let’s do the things we always do
Like go to the mall and buy some shoes
I don’t wanna cry, I’m bad at goodbye
If this is the last time”

The May before he left us we went to the mall to buy him some shoes. Yup. His special edition Nintendo Game Over Vans. I still have the receipt in his memory book and the shoes are in a shadow box with a thumb tack in the sole.

“Hey dad, what’s up? Miss you so much
Yeah, the shade of your hair has changed
But I look up to you the same”

Zane has ALWAYS looked up to his daddy. He called him his Batman.

“Taught me how to fish, taught me how to ride a bike
Taught me how to love, how to treat a woman right
Life is flyin’ by and it’s hittin’ me now
I hope it’s not, but…”

Joe taught him to fish, Zane loved to fish. The last family vacation he insisted on fishing in Ruidoso. Joe taught him to ride a bike but boy was he stubborn. He was lazy! Took forever to take those training wheels off lol. And obviously his daddy taught him how to treat a woman right. His momma and daddy have been married almost 24 years. And Zane died for love.

“If this is the last time, please come close
I love you with all my heart, you know
I don’t wanna cry, I’m bad at goodbye
If this is the last time
Then let’s do the things we always do
Like go for a drive or watch the news
I don’t wanna cry, I’m bad at goodbye
If this is the last time”

Joe and Zane would drive around. In fact Zane got to drive MY brand new car before I did, before I knew it was even delivered ๐Ÿ˜….

“Hey you, sit back
Don’t go, so fast

If this is the last time, please come close
I love you with all my heart, you know
I don’t wanna cry, I’m bad at goodbye
If this is the last time
So let’s do the things we always do
Or maybe we try something brand new
I don’t wanna cry, I’m bad at goodbye
If this is the last time

If this is the last time
If this is the last time
Oh, if this is the last time
If this is the last time
If this is the last time
Oh, if this is the last time”

Zane just loved. I wish all who read this knew him personally. Even at a young age of 16, he loved. He was an amazing son. This song tho. Maybe I’m imagining things. Maybe I’m not.

2 thoughts on “He Knows How to Get to Me”

  1. Thankful that through life, God shows us tender mercies and relates to us through good times and difficult times. Thank you Lord for giving talent for this song to be written and using it in personal ways for those who hear it.

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