"Head Above Water" By Avril Lavigne "I've gotta keep the calm before the storm I don't want less, I don't want more Must bar the windows and the doors To keep me safe, to keep me warm Yeah my life is what I'm fighting for Can't part the sea, can't reach the shore And my… Continue reading Don’t Let Me Drown
Author: Carrie Timmons
My name is Carrie Timmons and I have started this blog as a therapy after losing my 16 year old son to suicide. My world has forever changed. I will be Zane's mom forever 💜
Happy Birthday
18 years ago at 5:05 a.m. this morning I delivered a beautiful baby boy by C-section after going into labor four weeks early. God only allowed me to have this child for 16 years, 9 months, and 19 days. He isn't here to celebrate his 18th birthday. He isn't here to celebrate one of life's… Continue reading Happy Birthday
I Will Need Him
Saturday on the way home from work I couldn't even keep count of the butterflies I saw fly in front of me. That's never happened. Later on that day I found out that the monarch butterflies were migrating. How fitting. And absolutely beautiful. Then I was reminded of their short yet gorgeous life span. Just… Continue reading I Will Need Him
I Still Ask Why
Big question... What if? What if it was YOUR child? Think about it. Dwell on that thought. Ponder. Because guess what? Yes, it CAN happen to YOU. Just ask Kelly (Thomas), Renee (Riley), Kate's family, Anthony's family, Rusty's family, Lila (Alex), Robin's family, Chester's family, Chris's family, Daniel... Adrianna... Zeagan... Joe... me... I could go… Continue reading I Still Ask Why
The Way He Died
"Wishing for a different past will waste the present." This quote is on a neighborhood church billboard. I usually enjoy reading the sign but every time I pass this one I shake my head. I wish EVERY day for a different past on July 26th, 2017. How can my present be wasted when he WAS… Continue reading The Way He Died
Signs
My imagination is a terrible thing. It's a monster. It likes to play tricks on me. I will be driving in my car to work and I hear things. I'm not sure if it's voices or just noises. What I WANT to believe is it's a voice. I WANT to believe it's HIS voice. But… Continue reading Signs
I Can Feel You
“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart.” ― Helen Keller While I feel empty most of the time, I feel him constantly. Funerals. Celebrations of life. Services. Since Zane's I have dreadfully attended 5. I should have gone to… Continue reading I Can Feel You
