Suicide Awareness

33.57°N 102.38°E

"Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end." ~ John Lennon A friend posted this on FB the other day. I told her I can only 'imagine' Zane thought it was okay in the end. My sweet baby boy was ok. But what about the innocent people in… Continue reading 33.57°N 102.38°E

Suicide Awareness

Let Me Be Angry

I never understood when someone explained just "waking up in a sad mood." I never understood just crying for no reason out of the blue. I always thought there needed to be a darn good explanation. Yeah no. That all flew out the window. Joe and I used to be semi avid movie goers. Since… Continue reading Let Me Be Angry

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Wish Upon a Star ☄️

Have you ever thought about how old you will live to? Or how long you WANT to live to? I never did before 6 months ago. I just lived life. Now I live day to day hoping I will make it without breaking down. I hear how old some people live to and it's remarkable.… Continue reading Wish Upon a Star ☄️

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; His Story Isn’t Over Yet

My last blog was for Zane's six month anniversary. It went by so fast. Sort of. Like eternity fast. That doesn't make sense but yeah, fast. The boys asked us to meet them at Zane's home last Friday night so of course we did. It was great seeing them all together. Every time, I swear… Continue reading ; His Story Isn’t Over Yet

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G..R..I..E..F.. (Month 6)

G... Great, gigantic, grand, gaping, gloom, grave R... Restless, regret, rough, rage, rainstorm I... Infliction, indecisive, illusion, insidious E... Eternal, edgy, emptiness, ending F... Fatality, fear, forever, flashbacks, family I've been told there are five stages of grief. Denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. It has been six months today and I truely believe I'm… Continue reading G..R..I..E..F.. (Month 6)

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Priceless Moments

As we pull up to the house the other day I asked Zeagan "Hey Zeagan! Who's house are we at?" His response is priceless... "Zane Zane's!" Zane never lived at this little rent house. He never even stepped foot in the door. Not in his human form. My mom, stepdad, my sister Cheryl, great niece… Continue reading Priceless Moments

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Stolen Forever 💜

"If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them." —James O’Barr This is a pretty strong quote. Do I feel like Zane was stolen from us? Yes. Will I ever stop loving him? Absolutely not. Do I think his friends will ever… Continue reading Stolen Forever 💜