Suicide Awareness

Fair Warning

I was driving to work Tuesday morning, it's sunny, slightly cloudy. I'm listening to XM radio like usual and 'Location' by Khalid starts to play... "Send me your location Let's focus on communicatin' 'cause I just need the time and place to come through" Another song on Zane's playlist. A flashback started. A new one.… Continue reading Fair Warning

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He Was My Future

"When the past dies, we mourn for the dead; when the future dies, we mourn for ourselves." ~ Gloria Steinem Is this what I am doing? I suppose. Probably because he was MY future. OUR future. Joe and I went to the gym Saturday morning and were headed straight to the softball field to watch… Continue reading He Was My Future

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How Loved Are You?

As I sit and talk to Zane at the cemetery, I ask (scream) out loud "Why did it take you dying for everyone to show how loved you are?!?" If the death of my baby wasn't a big clue, I don't care who you are, you need to tell anyone who means ANYTHING to you… Continue reading How Loved Are You?

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Ladybug Kisses

A cord of three strands is not easily broken. Ecclesiastes 4:12 The general translation is that if one man stands alone, he is easily beaten. Two men standing together is better but three is sure to be the strongest. Here's my translation: one person alone is lonely but braid that person with their family and… Continue reading Ladybug Kisses

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Every Day I Love You

Why was Easter so hard? Holidays are becoming as nasty as July 26th. The next two will be the worst for Joe and I. Yes we still have our Daniel to help celebrate our being a mother and a father but it's not the same without our baby boy. I know it's just a made… Continue reading Every Day I Love You

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As I Reflect

"My God my God why have you forsaken me?" What? Why would the Son of man ask his own father this question? Probably because Jesus is about to die in a brutal way, nailed to a cross between two thieves, while he did nothing to deserve his death. This is the question I asked God… Continue reading As I Reflect

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4 + 4

8 months. First I need to apologize for my last blog post. My heart got in the way. It was silly of me to get emotionally involved in Facebook. I have been having a rough time lately. I miss him so much. Easter is coming up. Then my first Mother's Day without him. I think… Continue reading 4 + 4