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Don’t Let Me Drown

"Head Above Water" By Avril Lavigne "I've gotta keep the calm before the storm I don't want less, I don't want more Must bar the windows and the doors To keep me safe, to keep me warm Yeah my life is what I'm fighting for Can't part the sea, can't reach the shore And my… Continue reading Don’t Let Me Drown

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Happy Birthday

18 years ago at 5:05 a.m. this morning I delivered a beautiful baby boy by C-section after going into labor four weeks early. God only allowed me to have this child for 16 years, 9 months, and 19 days. He isn't here to celebrate his 18th birthday. He isn't here to celebrate one of life's… Continue reading Happy Birthday

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I Will Need Him

Saturday on the way home from work I couldn't even keep count of the butterflies I saw fly in front of me. That's never happened. Later on that day I found out that the monarch butterflies were migrating. How fitting. And absolutely beautiful. Then I was reminded of their short yet gorgeous life span. Just… Continue reading I Will Need Him

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I Still Ask Why

Big question... What if? What if it was YOUR child? Think about it. Dwell on that thought. Ponder. Because guess what? Yes, it CAN happen to YOU. Just ask Kelly (Thomas), Renee (Riley), Kate's family, Anthony's family, Rusty's family, Lila (Alex), Robin's family, Chester's family, Chris's family, Daniel... Adrianna... Zeagan... Joe... me... I could go… Continue reading I Still Ask Why

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The Way He Died

"Wishing for a different past will waste the present." This quote is on a neighborhood church billboard. I usually enjoy reading the sign but every time I pass this one I shake my head. I wish EVERY day for a different past on July 26th, 2017. How can my present be wasted when he WAS… Continue reading The Way He Died

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I Can Feel You

“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart.” ― Helen Keller While I feel empty most of the time, I feel him constantly. Funerals. Celebrations of life. Services. Since Zane's I have dreadfully attended 5. I should have gone to… Continue reading I Can Feel You