Suicide Awareness

Butterfly Love

Last week we finally got some of Zane's belongings back from the police. I needed his phone... apparently someone decided to hack into his snap chat and Instagram accounts. It took me two days to open the envelope but I did it. I was able to change the passwords temporarily and hopefully that will work… Continue reading Butterfly Love

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Take More Pictures

I'm watching the movie Soul Surfer (where Bethany gets attacked by a shark and loses her arm) and I'm a horrible person. I'm judging. The parents are crying, asking questions... asking why. Bethany, the main character asks why God would make this part of her 'plan'. Again, judging. This movie is based on a true… Continue reading Take More Pictures

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Double Digits

The mornings are getting warmer and ten months came so fast. I still cry every day. Every. Single. Day. I'm still not wearing eyeliner for fear of looking goth in the middle of the day from a random breakdown. I'm lucky to put mascara on. I still stare off into space wondering if he's ok.… Continue reading Double Digits

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Make It Count

As we were trolling around a store on Saturday, May 12th in Dallas, I came upon a book and decided to buy it for Zeagan. It was Guardians of the Galaxy. It's an animated book about Baby Groot going to sleep. Perfect right? Well here's why I'm telling you...I open Facebook, at which I told… Continue reading Make It Count

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I’m Still His Mom This Mother’s Day

A while back I decided to start treating myself again and getting my nails done. A new distraction I suppose. It's been good for me I think. Well the other day while sitting at the table a lady sat next to me and said "oh you have Hebrew on your wrist, it says family!". I… Continue reading I’m Still His Mom This Mother’s Day

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A Bug’s Life

Do you ever feel like a moth to a flame? Or a bug on a windshield? A grain of sand being buried deeper and deeper? I feel like that bug that got stuck on the windshield wiper that's trying to hang on for dear life. We've ALL been there. That's just where I am now.… Continue reading A Bug’s Life

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Dreaming With My Eyes Wide Open

There's a huge difference between dreaming and having vivid images. I honestly am not sure which I'd rather have when it comes to the negative aspect. Joe and I were having a deep conversation last week. We both have vivid images. Images you do not want to even think about. But we both cannot get… Continue reading Dreaming With My Eyes Wide Open