Suicide Awareness

Puppets and Strings

Wednesday on the way to school I asked Kai'Dyn to untangle my necklace. When she was finished I put it on and told her thank you, that was Zane's thumbprint. She then slightly teared up and said "well then I'm going to say a prayer.". Kai'Dyn bowed her head and prayed. It was so so… Continue reading Puppets and Strings

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God, I Hope He’s Okay

It's hard to hide tears but I think I've learned to do it well. After a year it's become habit. That shouldn't be the case but well, ya know. A client was talking about her AP classes... Zane was going to take them. Art... Zane was in art. Theatre... Zane was in theatre. UGH 😶… Continue reading God, I Hope He’s Okay

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We Are Mopar 3, All For Zane

I so wish Zane could have seen the sight we saw at the Texas Motor Speedway Saturday. He would have been drooling. We were there for him. All for him. The Dallas heat was almost unbearable but we stayed at the track almost the entire day. Pulling up to park we were already in Mopar… Continue reading We Are Mopar 3, All For Zane

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When Will the Sun Come Out

Why does it feel like yesterday when someone dies and a significant amount of time has passed? Why does God play tricks on our minds making us think it just happened? It only makes it hurt more all over again Kai'Dyn and I had a movie night, watching Penelope which I had never seen. In… Continue reading When Will the Sun Come Out

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July 26th…365 Days

“Hope is important because it can make the present moment less difficult to bear. If we believe that tomorrow will be better, we can bear a hardship today.” ~Thich Nhat Hanh This was the quote I got on my daily email this morning 💜. In one year life has continued. Not necessarily gone on but… Continue reading July 26th…365 Days

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Getting Closer

Wednesday I made dinner and I asked Joe to cut up a few pieces of chicken for the kids (Kai'Dyn, Riot, and TJ's niece and nephew). Well he cut up enough for me too. Then proceeded to make a funny remark about how he used to cut up mine and Zane's meat so he might… Continue reading Getting Closer

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It’s Still July

Not even two weeks into July... I'm not taking this month too well. Every morning is hard. Every night is equally difficult. Even Mia is acting strange. I would say I can't explain it but oh I sure can. The scattered showers are a repeat of a year ago. The thunder scares Mia. I couldn't… Continue reading It’s Still July