Almost 8 months and things will still never be the same. So much has changed. I'm not the same person. I kinda don't like who I am. But I can't be the old me. The old me died 239 days ago. As I was shampooing a client's hair this morning another flashback came to me.… Continue reading It’s All I Have
It’s Not Easy Being Me
Superman. Who is your Superman? Who is your Batman? Who is your superhero? Superman (It's Not Easy) by Five For Fighting I can't stand to fly I'm not that naive I'm just out to find The better part of me I'm more than a bird, I'm more than a plane I'm more than some pretty… Continue reading It’s Not Easy Being Me
Cookies Anyone?
I've shared this story before but it's such a funny one I have to repeat it. That's why the cover photo is the text conversation between Zane and I...it makes me laugh every time I read it. Very nostalgic. As usual, multiple boys at the house + frozen cookie dough + a microwave = a… Continue reading Cookies Anyone?
Fearful and Wonderful
"I am fearfully and wonderfully made." ~ Psalm 139:14 My son was fearfully and wonderfully made. I just wish he was still here to be fearful and wonderful with us. I am jealous of how strong he was, all the way to the end. He was never weak, not at any moment. Flashbacks suck. I… Continue reading Fearful and Wonderful
Seven Months & Our Beds Are Still Burning
How do we sleep when our beds are burning... One of my favorite songs from the 80s. But now it has a meaning. My bed is burning. I still can hardly sleep soundly. But I wish every night Zane would walk in my dreams, if I even dream at all. I haven't seen him in… Continue reading Seven Months & Our Beds Are Still Burning
Love Remains The Same
"A thousand times I've seen you standing Gravity like lunar landing You make me wanna run till I find you I shut the world away from here Drift to you, you're all I hear As everything we know fades to black Half the time the world is ending Truth is I am done pretending I,… Continue reading Love Remains The Same
33.57°N 102.38°E
"Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end." ~ John Lennon A friend posted this on FB the other day. I told her I can only 'imagine' Zane thought it was okay in the end. My sweet baby boy was ok. But what about the innocent people in… Continue reading 33.57°N 102.38°E
